I hope you are well.
I appreciate you taking the time from your day to read this.
Many would label my endeavors as “the cusp of a mid life crisis”: this journey of self exploration and self fuffilment that I have gone through for over 10 years. It didn’t really hit me until the passing of my birth father in 2011. At 75 years old, even to me, it seemed a life short lived and incomplete. Perhaps it was the selfishness of wanting him around a bit longer or looking into his eyes and knowing that we had both wished for more time. He had accepted my calling and my path and viewed me no differently. I suppose in his departure, to me, he was the end all, be all of accepting and embracing my life as Vampyre. And then to experience meeting You and having you make my fangs, I’ve woken up all over again.
I’ve read The Vampyre Sanguinomicon..twice. And find myself reading it a third time. In the day to day life of Me, its always organized, logical and judging. Those things quickly dissolve when I read The Sanguinomicon and I find myself just riding emotion. The dreams I have are more. Not more of anything specifically, just more.
I have thought that this was because of my fathers passing and perhaps for a time it was. Now, it is literally just me and whatever my thoughts are channeling at that moment.
My life has changed substantially since. I’ve obtained financial success and comfort and am proud to pass my legacy to my children.
Now I am on my way to figuring how to be just a bit more selfish and enjoy my success for me personally.
Thank You for Your Words and weather it was directly or indirectly, enabling me to think and dream.